Sunday, April 20, 2014

Breaking of Bread, The True Communion of 'Common Union' Among Believers

"How can two walk together unless they be agreed?"

Ephesians 4
4There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling; 5One Lord, one faith, one baptism, 6One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.

7But unto every one of us is given grace according to the measure of the gift of Christ.

The Road to Emmaus
13And, behold, two of them went that same day to a village called Emmaus, which was from Jerusalemabout threescore furlongs. 14And they talked together of all these things which had happened. 15And it came to pass, that, while they communed together and reasoned, Jesus himself drew near, and went with them.16But their eyes were holden that they should not know him. 17And he said unto them, What manner of communications are these that ye have one to another, as ye walk, and are sad? 18And the one of them, whose name was Cleopas, answering said unto him, Art thou only a stranger in Jerusalem, and hast not known the things which are come to pass there in these days? 19And he said unto them, What things? And they said unto him, Concerning Jesus of Nazareth, which was a prophet mighty in deed and word before God and all the people: 20And how the chief priests and our rulers delivered him to be condemned to death, and have crucified him. 21But we trusted that it had been he which should have redeemed Israel: and beside all this, to day is the third day since these things were done. 22Yea, and certain women also of our company made us astonished, which were early at the sepulchre; 23And when they found not his body, they came, saying, that they had also seen a vision of angels, which said that he was alive. 24And certain of them which were with us went to the sepulchre, and found it even so as the women had said: but him they saw not.
Jesus Explains the Prophecies
25Then he said unto them, O fools, and slow of heart to believe all that the prophets have spoken: 26Ought not Christ to have suffered these things, and to enter into his glory? 27And beginning at Moses and all the prophets, he expounded unto them in all the scriptures the things concerning himself.
28And they drew nigh unto the village, whither they went: and he made as though he would have gone further.29But they constrained him, saying, Abide with us: for it is toward evening, and the day is far spent. And he went in to tarry with them. 30And it came to pass, as he sat at meat with them, he took bread, and blessed it, and brake, and gave to them. 31And their eyes were opened, and they knew him; and he vanished out of their sight. 32And they said one to another, Did not our heart burn within us, while he talked with us by the way, and while he opened to us the scriptures? 33And they rose up the same hour, and returned to Jerusalem, and found the eleven gathered together, and them that were with them, 34Saying, The Lord is risen indeed, and hath appeared to Simon. 35And they told what things were done in the way, and how he was known of them in breaking of bread.

John 6: 
52The Jews therefore strove among themselves, saying, How can this man give us his flesh to eat? 53Then Jesus said unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Except ye eat the flesh of the Son of man, and drink his blood, ye have no life in you. 54Whoso eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, hath eternal life; and I will raise him up at the last day. 55For my flesh is meat indeed, and my blood is drink indeed. 56He that eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, dwelleth in me, and I in him. 57As the living Father hath sent me, and I live by the Father: so he that eateth me, even he shall live by me. 58This is that bread which came down from heaven: not as your fathers did eat manna, and are dead: he that eateth of this bread shall live for ever.


60Many therefore of his disciples, when they had heard this, said, This is an hard saying; who can hear it?61When Jesus knew in himself that his disciples murmured at it, he said unto them, Doth this offend you?62What and if ye shall see the Son of man ascend up where he was before? 63It is the spirit that quickeneth; the flesh profiteth nothing: the words that I speak unto you, they are spirit, and they are life. 64But there are some of you that believe not. For Jesus knew from the beginning who they were that believed not, and who should betray him. 65And he said, Therefore said I unto you, that no man can come unto me, except it were given unto him of my Father.
Peter's Confession of Faith
66From that time many of his disciples went back, and walked no more with him. 67Then said Jesus unto the twelve, Will ye also go away? 68Then Simon Peter answered him, Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life.

The celebration or memorial of Passover is celebrated this year, starting on April 14 and ending April 22.

These are interesting numbers in that 14 represents 'spiritual maturity' and 22 represents 'flesh cutting'.

1 Corinthians 5
6Your glorying is not good. Know ye not that a little leaven leaveneth the whole lump? 7Purge out therefore the old leaven, that ye may be a new lump, as ye are unleavened. For even Christ our passover is sacrificed for us: 8Therefore let us keep the feast, not with old leaven, neither with the leaven of malice and wickedness; but with the unleavened bread of sincerity and truth.

Unlike the Catholic 'church', who declares a 're-presentation' of the death and resurrection of Christ at the Mass,perpetually keeping Him in this state of re-doing,  the Bible declares this:  "And so it is written, The first man Adam was made a living soul; the last Adam was made a quickening spirit."  1 Corinthians 10:21 (the last Adam is Jesus) And:  For Christ also hath once suffered for sins, the just for the unjust, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh, but quickened by the Spirit: 1 Peter 3:18

And this:  Who shall change our vile body, that it may be fashioned like unto his glorious body, according to the working whereby he is able even to subdue all things unto himself. Philippians 3:21

Most of Christianity, serves the FLESH as noted in the very pagan celebration of Easter/Ishtar. Do you think GOD is honored when people say to each other, "Happy Easter!"  

Is not GOD's Word powerful enough?  

1 Corinthians 10:21
Ye cannot drink the cup of the Lord, and the cup of devils: ye cannot be partakers of the Lord's table, and of the table of devils.

Where is the true tabernacle (a portable sanctuary)?  What is the true temple (a building for worship)?

When will you forsake the traditions of men for the commands of GOD?

I have long been irritated that the Christian church insists on celebrating Easter/Ishtar when they should be celebrating Passover.  Did not GOD Himself give us these feast days?
(And I am not advocating Hebrew Roots doctrine here, just wading through the Babylonian Dragonthink.) If you would insist on celebrating Catholic holidaze, then go ALL THE WAY and join the Catholic church!

The lies are laughable!  The Protestants say the Catholics are wrong, yet do all that the Catholics do!

I have heard this too many times too:  "I can worship the GOD who created sex and fertility and springtime and still enjoy the pass-times of easter egg hunting and ham dinners.  I can focus on Christ."  C'est amusant!

But are you, if you are mixing the HOLY with the Profane? And how come you cannot lay those traditions down?  


We are supposed to be worshiping GOD in SPIRIT and in TRUTH.

The Ishtar Gate:  Built by Babylonian King  Nebuchadnezzar II and dedicated to the goddess Ishtar.

Pictures of this gate are in the Library of Congress.  Do we still want to ignore Truth and Fact?  When we do, we make the Word of GOD of NONE EFFECT!  And this is why many turn from Christianity, or rather Following Christ Jesus as Savior and LORD, because the followers of christianity MIX the holy with the profane.

Nebuchadnezzar declared that he built his empire for his own glory and majesty and yet GOD told him, HE was ripping it from him.   Ahh the pinnacle of pride!

Its pretty clear that that 501C3 "christian churches' are NOT going to turn from their sins.  They do NOT want to hear The Truth.  There god is their stomach and their glory is in their shame!

If you are a one that would hear the Words of GOD, than I declare and urge again the Words of Jesus Himself in Revelation 18

Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird. 3For all nations have drunk of the wine of the wrath of her fornication, and the kings of the earth have committed fornication with her, and the merchants of the earth are waxed rich through the abundance of her delicacies.
4And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues. 5For her sins have reached unto heaven, and God hath remembered her iniquities. 6Reward her even as she rewarded you, and double unto her double according to her works: in the cup which she hath filled fill to her double. 7How much she hath glorified herself, and lived deliciously, so much torment and sorrow give her: for she saith in her heart, I sit a queen, and am no widow, and shall see no sorrow. 8Therefore shall her plagues come in one day, death, and mourning, and famine; and she shall be utterly burned with fire: for strong is the Lord God who judgeth her.

For the Remnant
 Hebrews 13  8Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever.9Be not carried about with divers and strange doctrines. For it is a good thing that the heart be established with grace; not with meats, which have not profited them that have been occupied therein. 10We have an altar, whereof they have no right to eat which serve the tabernacle. 11For the bodies of those beasts, whose blood is brought into the sanctuary by the high priest for sin, are burned without the camp. 12Wherefore Jesus also, that he might sanctify the people with his own blood, suffered without the gate. 13Let us go forth therefore unto him without the camp, bearing his reproach. 14For here have we no continuing city, but we seek one to come.   

Revelation 14
11And the smoke of their torment ascendeth up for ever and ever: and they have no rest day nor night, who worship the beast and his image, and whosoever receiveth the mark of his name. 12Here is the patience of the saints: here are they that keep the commandments of God, and the faith of Jesus.
13And I heard a voice from heaven saying unto me, Write, Blessed are the dead which die in the Lord from henceforth: Yea, saith the Spirit, that they may rest from their labours; and their works do follow them.


Friday, April 18, 2014

'I Love You But': How Do We Love GOD With a Whole Heart--Faith Above Fiction

If you search the archives of Testify, you will find that I have sought, to confirm that Christianity is laden with Paganism, from Ishtar/Easter, to Christmas/Saturnalia, to Halloween and Sunday worship/Sabbath Day confusion.  And now, in the present state of Christianity, it is more focused on the flesh than ever, as exemplified with the likes of Joel Osteens, Your Best Life Now!  (Tell that to believers throughout the ages who have suffered miserably for telling the Truth.  Tell that to the millions of people who are suffering world wide catastrophes.  Tell that to the countless, millions of precious babies that are aborted daily in this country!)

Many Christians absolutely adore the stories of Gilgamesh (a demi-god),  Lord of the Rings and The Chronicles of Narnia.   As a child, I read LTR and most of C.S. Lewis's writings.  All these fantasy writings along with 'musical legends" like Led Zeppelin, The Stones and others of their ilk,  kept me in a cold darkness and I liked it!  It was sensual and lofty; dark and mysterious, quite contrary to the True Word of GOD, which set me free, once I learned the Truth: that I was a sinner in desperate need of salvation! (Let me urge each reader here, please read each Scripture.  Testimony is good, but it is the Word that set me free and continues to grow me.  I pray the same for you!)

1 John
 9If we receive the witness of men, the witness of God is greater: for this is the witness of God which he hath testified of his Son. 10He that believeth on the Son of God hath the witness in himself: he that believeth not God hath made him a liar; because he believeth not the record that God gave of his Son. 11And this is the record, that God hath given to us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. 12He that hath the Son hath life; and he that hath not the Son of God hath not life.
13These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may know that ye have eternal life, and that ye may believe on the name of the Son of God. 14And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us: 15And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.

Colossians 1 26Even the mystery which hath been hid from ages and from generations, but now is made manifest to his saints27To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory: 28Whom we preach, warning every man, and teaching every man in all wisdom; that we may present every man perfect in Christ Jesus:

Testimony:  The Mad Hatter Sees The Light


I must have been about 15 or 16 in this picture with one of my nieces.  I whole-heartedly celebrated Halloween.  Growing up Catholic, we always did!  My brother declares himself an atheist and yet, whole-heartedly celebrates all the holidays he was raised in. (The reality of the photo is that my niece was on the phone with my brother, who lived miles apart from her.  Graciously her mother would allow us time with her.  It always made me happy yet sad.  I did not like the separation.  And at Christmas, I was deeply grieved in my spirit, to hear this little girl squeal, "Daddy, Daddy! I love you and miss you!"  I would literally have to hide in the bathroom and grieve.  I believe even then YAHWEY was showing me the grief of the separation of HIS children.)

My brother and I are very much alike in personality.  In fact our Dad said we were like twins born years apart and no doubt, I love this brother very much.  My heart cries for him to know YAHWEY and to be set free from the madness that blinds his heart from the Truth!

Fiction Brings Comfort
There is a lot of fantasy that brings temporal comfort to the masses.  Everybody loves a superhero: He/she is strong, witty, super smart, super sexy/beautiful and always wins the battle.  But as the late Pastor David Myer explained, in witchcraft, the 'force' of good fighting evil are both the same!'  
You can read Myers works here

I counseled a women several years ago, who at four months pregnant, was told by her husband that he had been sleeping with another woman for over a year.  "Why am I not enough for him?" she cried.    I often think about what was sown into the woman and then her child and have pondered on that question.

Many times friends and family and spouses disappoint each other through sinful actions and we may all find ourselves asking the question, "What is wrong with me, that I am not 'enough?'"

I am confident YAHWEY allows these things to happen, 1. to show us the truth of where we are--How come YAHWEY is not enough?  Truth Is ALL our needs are met in Christ Yahshua! Philippians 4:19   But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
And 2. to show us:  Do we lie?  Do we steal?  Do we defraud?  Do we lack love?  Do we complain?  Do we stray?  Do we want other than what YAHWEY has given us?

We do a lot to cover the truth: with alcohol, drugs, sex, shopping, music, work etc...

Eighteen: Young and Dumb

So up until eighteen, I know there is a GOD.  I can feel it in my bones!  Somehow even through all the madness of the Catholic Church, bits and pieces of the truth are getting to me.  But the rules applied, were none that I could 'live up to'.  I found myself forever, "messing up".  How could I ever attain heaven?  

So one night I am working at this restaurant, which I am sure was a cover for a drug running business.  Everyone from the owner to the dishwasher was smoking, snorting or drinking something, even the guy I was dating was a coke-head, unbeknownst to me!  And I am quite sure we were serving "magic brownies" (made with pot) because at the end of the evening if there were some left over, you better believe I had one.  

If fascinated me that something that "looked' and smelled and tasted soooo good, could be so wrong!

Philippians 3
17Brethren, be followers together of me, and mark them which walk so as ye have us for an ensample.18(For many walk, of whom I have told you often, and now tell you even weeping, that they are the enemies of the cross of Christ: 19Whose end is destruction, whose God is their belly, and whose glory is in their shame, who mind earthly things.) 20For our conversation is in heaven; from whence also we look for the Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ: 21Who shall change our vile body, that it may be fashioned like unto his glorious body, according to the working whereby he is able even to subdue all things unto himself.

(At this writing my little girl comes in and says, "That brownie looks yummy!"  I ask her, "It does, but if it had a little tiny bit of poop in it would you eat it?"  She looks at me with her big brown eyes, sparkling and declares, "NO WAY!!"   I ask her why and she states emphatically, 'poop is disgusting'.  Do we find sin disgusting?  And if not, why not?)

So here I am in this fancy restaurant and I get into a conversation with a man (a busboy) who declares himself a Rastafarian.  (I'll let you do your own research on the subject)  We called him "Rastaman"

We start talking about spiritual things.  I tell him I don't believe in all that voodoo hocus pocus, when he declares to me, "I tell you da trute!  If I take you apron home toonite, I make you bring me you paycheck every week."  Suddenly, a fire rose up inside me.  I looked at him, pointed my finger at him and said these words:  "You cannot touch this vessel, it has been bought with the blood of JESUS CHRIST!"  

People, that was before I made a 'profession of faith'.  And years later, I know like I know, that that was the Holy Spirit guarding what was His and rebuking that man because at that time in my life, I DID NOT talk like that!

Rastaman never talked to me again.  And a few weeks later, I got fired from my job (along with another guy).  The owner was a lush and didn't know his bum from his elbow!  Oddly enough, I finished my work for the evening, said goodbye to a few folks, who were blown away and confused about the firing.  I came home and told my folks, who were oddly enough, relieved. What was going on? 

Every door was closed for me.  I could not get a job in Cleveland anywhere.  I found it ridiculous. My sister, who lived in Chattanooga, invited me to come down here for the summer and work at her husbands office.  So I did.  I flew down and spent the summer here.

One Sunday my sister invited me to come to their church.  I thought, ok.  While there I heard the pastor repeat John 3 16For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 17For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. 18He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. 19And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. 21But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.

And later that evening, my brother-in-law asked me some questions:  What have you ever done that was so good to merit heaven?  What have you ever done that was so bad that GOD wouldn't love you?  If you were to die tonight, do you know where you would go?  Heaven or hell?

Good questions.  And they burned through all my thinking.  Growing up Catholic, I thought I had to EARN the right to be in heaven with JESUS.  But I knew the truth--I was a sinner!  I didn't love GOD or honor Him in any way.  I was selfish, self-centered, lustful about many things, angry and controlling.  And I never thought of GOD as loving me, I thought HE just demanded that I obey all these rules, all the time, that I could never master.  And lets face it-everyone around me was doing what they wanted to do.

But it was JESUS's words in the book of John that floored me.  'Jesus loves me?'  I am so yucky and pathetic!  I was a beautiful young woman, but did not 'feel' beautiful in my heart.  I 'knew' I was not truly beautiful, because my heart was dark.

Then it hit me.  Because of my own actions, my willful, sinful actions, I did deserve to go to hell.  Did I deserve to go to heaven?  What had I done to show that GOD was beautiful and real to others?  Woe was me, literally.  Who could save me from MYSELF?  Seems like I was bent on destroying my life. Highway To Hell had been my theme song and I hadn't cared if I died.  

I had boyfriends and brothers and a good Dad.  There is only so much love any one person can give another.  I was angry that no one had rescued me from being raped!  Why would GOD let that happen to me (at the time I was 11 years old!).  Everyone says, "I love you" but there is always a but! Many a time I felt like a burden.  What people often feel in a human sense, they translate into that is how GOD feels about them.  But GOD is infinite.  HIS love never ends and HE is not fallen and messed up-we are.  In Genesis 3 Adam and Eve declare their, "I love You, but" when they listened to satan instead of their FATHER and since then we are all "I love You, but".   GOD is "I love you, and".

Yes, there are blessings for obedience and curses for disobedience.  Come on, we know this to be true when we are training a dog!   GOD loves us THROUGH our sin.  HE does not love the sin.  The sin is our self will trying to override HIS.  You do not like it when your dog pees on your couch or tears up clothes, but you still love him right?

A True Hero

I realized then that there was no hope in and of myself- "I" was hopeless and could not fix anything.  I realized that Jesus did the ultimate super hero thing- He put Himself between me and the worst thing that could happen to me-death.  We all know our bodies will die.  One out of every one person dies!  The Bible says, "Flesh and blood do NOT inherit the kingdom of GOD" and that Jesus is a "Life giving Spirit".   I needed a life!  I needed a real life!

All the other super hero's could rescue someone from situations, including death, but NONE could rescue from the death that is ultimate--spiritual death, which is complete separation from GOD's wonderful love!

That day I was very grieved over my sins.  I realized GOD was real.  And that HIS love for me was real!  And that there was something more HE saw in me than just my every physical flaw and sin.  HE saw the spirit that HE created that is truly me.  HE saw that I was lost and needed to be found.  That I was dead and needed to live!  That the world had been choking the  Word out of me, and that I needed to breathe!  I need HIS breath of life!

And praise HIM for setting me free!  I do not love this world or anything in it.  I love people.  I love their spirits.  I do not always love/like what people do, but I am not the judge.  I can do what Jesus did and continues to do for me:  I can love people through the muck and mire.  But I also have to tell the truth!  True love tells the Truth!

To this day, I still cry and am deeply moved by the love, mercy and grace YAHWEY has poured out on me.  I am so undeserving of any of it!  I deeply desire to 'Love GOD and", not love Him, but...

Where is the grieving over sin?  Where is the anguish?  Anguish means 'acute bodily or mental suffering' , torment.  Where is the grief over the many half/truths that 'churches' teach?  Where is the anguish over the sins that we have all committed, opening gate after gate, after gate and now reaping what we have sown?  There are NONE that are righteous, no NOT ONE!  We have all fallen short of the glory of GOD.  We have ALL gone our own way and insist on our own path.

Where is the power of Christ in us?  Is it possible that the true church, does not see the spiritually dead, raising up to life everlasting because she is heavy-laden with her own grievous sins?  "Come out of her My people!  Touch no unclean thing and I will receive you unto Myself!"  Come out of self will, pride, arrogance, anger, meanness, lust, judgings, lies and gossip.

Don't tell me the people of the world need to repent, they do.  But it is we-YAHWEYS people, who know the Truth, that need to beg Him for mercy.  

FATHER open my eyes, restore to me the fire that I once had.  Dive in the depths of my heart and reveal to me where I am wrong, where I am/have sinned against You.  Set me free from whatever is putting me in bondage to the extent that I am powerless and am worthless in Your kingdom.
FATHER teach me Your ways and never let me go.  If I can do just one thing for You, my Love, I want to do it.  Let me honor You in the true worship of surrender.  I don't need anyone to see it, but You!  Your approval means more to me than anything or anyone.

I don't know about you, but my prayers have been, that FATHER would open folks hearts and quicken those spirits and that HE would come quickly.  

I didn't get to finish this writing earlier. (busy mom) 

I wanted to clarify that even though I was raised Catholic and heard John 3 in a Baptist church, that does not mean I condone 'churches'.   The truth of the message of the gospel can be heard anywhere.  The problem with 'churches' is that they are man made.  We can meet/assemble anywhere at anytime.  "Where two or more are gathered in HIS name, there HE is with them in their midst."
And the truth of the gospel message can be heard in a pizza place!

FATHER makes it clear that HE hates the mixing of the Holy with the profane.

2 Corinthians 6
14Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness? 15And what concord hath Christ with Belial? or what part hath he that believeth with an infidel?
16And what agreement hath the temple of God with idols? for ye are the temple of the living God; as God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.
17Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the uncleanthing; and I will receive you,
18And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty.

A true person of GOD should teach/preach this way:

Ezekiel 44:23
"Moreover, they shall teach My people the difference between the holy and the profane, and cause them to discern between the unclean and the clean.

Today many people are off of work and will be celebrating the weekend of Ishtar/Easter.  This is right in the midst of Passover (what we could be recognizing-although if you are born again, you recognize Passover every day!).  See the confusion?  And that is true Babylon--confusion.

FATHER help!

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

'I Love You But': How Do We Love GOD With A Whole Heart? Part 2

"I love you but...I can't forgive you."     "I love you is not a good time in my life."     "I love you're really complicated."

I love you but...

Love is a verb.  It is an emotion in action.  It is a will of the soul, heart, mind and spirit in action!
("Show me who you are, and I will believe you!")

Love brought Jesus to earth in the form of a weak baby.  Love is vulnerable.

Love lead Jesus to the cross.  "Not my will be done, but Yours!"  concedes Jesus while sweating drops of blood!  That is pressure!  Love is full of all kinds of pressure.

Love is a fight!  You got to love The Truth and fight the lie(s).

True love endures forever.

The Intimacy of Love

True love is willing.  When a bride repeats her vows they go something like, "I promise to love, honor and obey."   Shouldn't the Bride of Christ be promising and doing the same; to love, honor and obey?

How do we love, honor and obey GOD?  Well if you are religious and churched, you might answer, "By going to church every Sunday.  By volunteering in the nursery and food pantry.  By going on mission trips."

In Chapter 5 of the Song of Solomon  this encounter takes place.
2I sleep, but my heart waketh: it is the voice of my beloved that knocketh, saying, Open to me, my sister, my love, my dove, my undefiled: for my head is filled with dew, and my locks with the drops of the night.
3I have put off my coat; how shall I put it on? I have washed my feet; how shall I defile them?
4My beloved put in his hand by the hole of the door, and my bowels were moved for him.
5I rose up to open to my beloved; and my hands dropped with myrrh, and my fingers with sweet smelling myrrh, upon the handles of the lock.
6I opened to my beloved; but my beloved had withdrawn himself, and was gone: my soul failed when he spake: I sought him, but I could not find him; I called him, but he gave me no answer.

How do we love, honor and obey GOD? When the question is asked...don't delay!  You want to prove your love to your Lord and Savior?  Don't delay your response to Him when He knocks on your heart!

Piece of My Heart
We give our life to Jesus, but we give Him only pieces; the parts we are willing to give.   I am sorry but I thoroughly believe that mediocrity is a sin!  Now I am not saying that GOD is not present or wonderful or doesn't speak in and through the mundane.  I am saying to put a half hearted effort into a spiritual life that GOD imparts to you is a sin.

I don't celebrate xmas but I certainly do celebrate in my heart/soul, the incarnation of GOD!  What a glorious and celebratory event! (Can the mundane become a tiny celebration?  A sister commented to me how grateful she is to have a washer and dryer, albeit in a shared facility.  She has a thankful heart!  Can fixing a car, or paying someones rent, or feeding the homeless, be as celebratory as Thanksgiving?)

As the Holy Spirit, which is the True Life, lives in us, we most certainly have something to celebrate!

Genesis 2
21And the LORD God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept: and he took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh instead thereof; 22And the rib, which the LORD God had taken from man, made he a woman, and brought her unto the man.
23And Adam said, This is now bone of my bones, and flesh of my flesh: she shall be called Woman, because she was taken out of Man.
24Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh. 25And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.
(Sounds like Adam was celebratory!)

When did Eve stop loving Adam and GOD with a whole heart? When she listened to the serpent.
At what point did Adam stop loving GOD with a whole heart?  When he hearkened(listened) to the voice of his wife over the commands of GOD.  

(Now this is not an Adam/man bashing post or a who's fault was it first).  Adam and Eve were ONE.
Both of them pulled an "I love you, but..."  And that 'I love you but', was "I love You Father, but You are not enough for me.And what You've given me is not enough.  I want more!"

How can you want more when you have everything?

Have you ever been rejected by someone you love?  How did that make you feel?  Were you crushed?  Were you in shock?  Did you feel like dying, just a little bit?  

Adam made an idol out of Eve.  Perhaps she was extremely beautiful and he let that beauty override his loyalty to Father?  Is this why men have the most difficult time with their eyes?  I have read that the struggle men have with 'not' looking, is liken to asking the woman who is presently reading this sentence to stop reading it!  

Luke 11:34  The light of the body is the eye: therefore when thine eye is single, thy whole body also is full of light; but when thine eye is evil, thy body also is full of darkness.

(Eyes are gateways.  Fight at the gates Christian.  Lean not on your own understanding but pray in the Spirit on ALL occasions!)

Women have their 'eye candy' also.  The pride of life, the stuffs, the house beautiful and oddly enough in a non-homosexual way, women lust after other women's beauty.  ('Oh I wish I had legs like her, or was skinny like her')

This is all goddess worship and we are immersed in it.  From Easter to 'Christ mas', to Vogue, to Playboy. To the theatre that is school/education, to the work place!

Oh GOD, if only we were blind, so that we might see clearly!

So how do we love GOD with a whole heart when it seems like everything is so messed up?  I think we have to start with what we've got.   Start with loving and being thankful and content with what GOD has already given you.  And because we are like little gospels/little representations of Jesus (because His Spirit lives in us!), let's make the most of every opportunity because the days are evil and time is short.

Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might. Eccl 9:10  Be ready and willing, quickly to let anything or all go at a moments notice.  Keep in mind, these may be small things too.

What we have in this 'life' is all temporal and fading fast.

Stop looking at the image.

FATHER I pray that You would help us love You with a whole heart.  A heart that is willing to hear Your voice, go where You ask, speak to whom You ask, give to whom you ask.  FATHER please give us the gift of repentance.  Sometimes we know not what we are doing, but if we would know the truth and be set free, we have to know the thing(s) that separate us from You.  Please removed the blinders from our eyes, that we might see clearly all that is idol to You.  Give us the Spirit of conviction and Godly sorrow and help us turn from those things and have a single eye on You and then be a light to a dying world.